I miss blogging, I really do. I miss the introspection I had earlier this summer, the outlook I had on life. But the words just don't flow when the emotions aren't right, and the emotions aren't right right now.
I'm headed back to Anderson today to tie up loose ends and say goodbye to my dear friends. And as anxious as I am to see them and spend quality time with the people I love dearly... I am a little nervous. Because this really will be the last time- there will be no more definite plans for a long time, no date to count down to. I'm kind of dreading the START of this time together, because it means the end will only be closer.
I'm kind of sad, and feeling terribly guilty. Because this should be exciting, right? This should be a wonderful, adventurous time spent saying (as my dear C~ would say) "See you later!" But all I can do is be sad.
Hoping that this week isn't too upsetting.
1. Thank you for blogging.
ReplyDelete2. I WILL see you in a year. That is, if you decide to come back because we need to bring this dream to life. This Groucho Marx impression needs to happen.
3. I had the same feelings before I left for Chicago (even though that isn't near as far and long) but I got over it. Stephanie Sablich, this may be my ignorance speaking, but I think you have the jitters, and this is completely normal. Besides, I need SOMEONE to live vicariously through if I'm going to be stuck in Nebraska for another year.